First it was just the waking up early that bothered me not to go to the amusement park today, and the restlessness since I don't sleep well at holidays and I've been out everyday - but since my cousin's going back to Medan soon - you can't leave Jakarta not going to Dufan. The new ride, Hysteria - no way no hysteria there - encouraged me though, even if that encouragement is quickly dissolved that my mother's 32 weeks along pregnant and no one approves of her coming and Thalia's conflict and everything.

So, that was what I was pondering while queueing for the roller coaster and thought of how it reminds me of Susan Elizabeth's Black Thunder and how it's supposed to bring Honey Moon's calmness - when Maxi had to kept pushing because the punk kid behind him was shoving him forward and the little chubby mean kid who didn't want to back down the queue was fighting for our place and kept shoving and pushing and it was so annoying I actually told them to quit shoving. 

Future reference on fainting - because I intend to have this experience and get the silver lining of it:

Then either because of the heat my stomach felt queasy as I thought of the bread I quickly savored in minutes before - I wasn't feeling good. My legs were wobbly and the shoving from the back made it hard to breath as the two way line thinned into a single line and people shoved harder (especially that kid whom later I ran into again at McD and I had to count to 5). I started to think "If I were home, I'd be cool at my room in front of my computer doing something productive. God, am I having a panic attack? I'm not having a panic attack. God, I'm breathing hard, I am having a panic attack. Stop thinking of panic attacks and you're not gonna have one." Then I tried to stop thinking all together and it was worse! I tried to take in as much oxygen as possible and it's like I can't breath through my nose so I started with my mouth and I felt so lightheaded that I grabbed the back of Sylvia's arm - whom was in front of me at the line - and said to her "I felt like I want to faint" Which is partly true because I also want to vomit but I don't feel like I have anything in me I can vomit out so I leaned my head down at my limp arm dangling at the railing and the weight of my backpack felt so huge; which is weird since it only had a few pieces of clothes and crackers at the time (I didn't even bring my Caprisone).My aunts and cousins began to worry but it made everything worse, their shouts and loud voices on top of the others and when I looked up my ears were ringing and my vision blurred I'd barely made out that they said I looked so pale. I didn't know how I managed to kept moving forward at the queue until the stairs leading up to the coaster but I sat down at the steps because everything's blurry and I can't hear right - the moment when I felt just like dying because the feeling's so unpleasant and my aunt began to massage my neck because gratefully they had the chapstick like eucalyptus oil rubbed all over me. I think the lady in front of us at the queue understood my aunt's frantic Hokkian language that she offered hers which was in the bottle to me (they told me when I was better since I couldn't see or hear right). It's like being in a deep pool and the sounds are coming from the surface and there's a deathly silent ringing and no matter what it didn't go away and you don't have a nose that you can only breath at short gasps through your mouth that you can't talk like all the breath's been knocked out of you. I looked up after squating down to put my head between my knees and it was all blurry and purplish pink so whatever they offered me I took and being told to drink I did. And later I tasted the oil which tastes totally weird and effective at the same time but all was still pink and hazy when they finished dragging me on top of the coaster where I sat crossed leg at the operator booth and Slyvia was so scared at my - face, I bet, what else right - that she didn't want to go on the ride. Putting my head between my knees while waiting for the others to finish the ride because I just want to get down, find a bench and rest my eyes for a while - which what I did exactly after being escorted down the steps because when getting back at my feet it started being hazy purplish pink and ringing ears all over again until at McD - I don't know how I managed to get there, dragged I imagined - sitting at the farthest deserted table at the outside corner and I can breath right again, where my mom - when she met up with us after taking the little kids to the flying elephant ride- scolded me for my eating habits. So I felt oil whenever I had an air bubble coming up my throat and avoided crowded queueing all day - which's saying that I probably didn't ride anything exciting at all. 

And I just explained my feeling of my the worst 20 minutes today.

But the rest of the day was just fantastic; family feuds' gossips - Thalia as she was being punished left alone at home while the rest of us went to the amusement park and missed my almost dying so she probably didn't have as much fun at home - was a hot topic, Didi's usual temper tantrums, my fooling Maxi and him falling so easily for it and he gets back at it to Slyvia, Vivian's and my aunt's dirty jokes and my pretending not to know who this perverted people who happen to always queueing near me. 

My other aunt and her son did went home early; having enough and missing dinner and the picture.

Swear that we didn't plan on wearing white. A pleasant coincidence! 

This what made me sometimes pretend like I didn't know Vivian and my aunt; except this is the mild, less provocative version.

Labels: family: aunts, family: cousin, magazine: misteri, place: dufan

Okaaay, IGCSE results are out and it is bad (except for Gitasya who got straight As and A*) - 10th August 2009. This morning it was posted in front of the International's lab/library window and I closed my eyes real tight and see that I got..

Biology: C
English: A
Chemistry: C
Math: A
Physics: C

Everyone else was so stressed out about their scores (Imagine the twelve graders, the only one who passed was Anissa who got all A* in her AS level). So we didn't have chemistry - the teacher understands us and physics (although Mr. Sapto stuck around though to show us this now that we got our IGCSE scores and he showed us our paper 1 physics. I spent the time going online at the back of the class, twittering and pranking people with Cigi at omegle - pretending to be lesbians and we got someone to play along (or really one, not sure).



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Incase you haven't noticed, I changed the layout!


I got home and found my two aunts and my parents with the family file (it was like a HUGE scrapbook - with all the family certificates, copies of passports and IDs of everyone in there) in front of the laptops quickly trying to book plane tickets before the promo at Air Asia closes. They booked 26 plane tickets for March 2010, next year by my dad's birthday for 1 +/- week yay we got to skip school! (It was supposed to be 27 with my aunt's boyfriend but she didn't want him to come and the promo ended by the time they refreshed the website) and there was my uncle's second wife (well, wife, now that his divorce with my 5th aunt finalized at court) For the second time, the whole family is going to Bali, again.

2 years ago - last time I went to Bali with my whole family and surprises my grandmother on 12 am for her birthday - my grandpa was still there the last time we went and my hair was still so long


My parents are bribing me though - my mom offered me a Macbook if I get out of high school by the end of the month and go apply abroad with my IGCSE scores, when I finished telling them about my day today. Macbook dayum (: Okay, I'm off to cook dinner with my parents (once in a life time thing, my maid is off somewhere) - I'm stirring the eggs (I still can't break them properly)

Labels: family: cousin, family: gathering, friend: cigi, place: bali, place: omegle, school: igcse

FAMILY DAY
chinese new year

pictures speaks a thousand words




with farrel

twins

like mother like daughter

with kathy


with maxi farrel

whole family

wholesome

with thalia

waiting for maxi

'sex and the city'


the other child, half cousin (?), blah.

cousinscousins

not forgetting grandpa

bunch of rappers

spoiled manny

prep

grand grandmother's house

pluit's house

petugas kebersihan restaurant abuba, "INDRA"

end

other end.

messy

cousins

little ones

with dery

finishing up

erick gay

marah dipalak.



Setelah pulang dari rumah ipo, rumah om yang ada anjingnya (kagatau kita pada siapa namanya) dan rumah ama - keti, alicia pada ribut katanye laper. Terus orangtua (ibuibu) mengusulkan karena banyak anak-anaknya (banyak angpaunya) kita pergi makan ke abuba dan kita semua di palakin 50ribu satu anak, haha. Tapi karena makannya ramerame, terus satu anak ditambah dengan orangtua, jadinya yah lebih dan ditombokin ama orang tua -__-
uang palakan



Pulang-pulang, pas gua mau belajar biologi udah jam 9 kan, jadi gua males. Haha, jadinya msn dah. Pertama gua chatting ama mikey, terus dia ngeramal gua -___- ramalan paling stupid banget

(9:57 PM) ilham: gwe liat ramalannya dulu di bola kristal
(9:57 PM) yecs ;: halah
(9:57 PM) yecs ;: -,-
(9:59 PM) ilham: ehmm..... tahun kerbau ini warna anda adalah biru... dan anda harus membeli yg berwarna biru... lalu berikan pada orang laen ..... kalo bisa saya sarankan bli lah kaset blu- ray ( biru ray ) untuk ps3 teman anda
(9:59 PM) yecs ;: HAHAHAA
(9:59 PM) ilham: itu bunyi ramalannyaa

Terus dia nge invite cigi ama nabol. Tapi cigi msnnya kaga jelas jadinya dia keluar-masuk, keluar masuk. Mutia baru di add langsung off -___- Gua udah bilang ke nabol kalo mau di ramal jangan mau, eh si nabol memberi kesempatan, terus si mikey ngasi ramalan persis dengan ramalan yang dia kasih ke gua -__-

(10:05 PM) yecs ;: BACOT BANGET.
(10:05 PM) yecs ;: ramalannya PERSIS kea gua yeeh -,-
(10:06 PM) yecs ;: udah gua bilang jangan, bol
(10:06 PM) ilham: ya orang bola kristalnya cma atu jd ramalannya gk gnti
(10:06 PM) yecs ;: stupid -,-
(10:06 PM) nabb_d@hotmail.c: lawak banget mike
(10:06 PM) yecs ;: emang peramal beneran punya 91287137273 bola kristal ape -,-
(10:06 PM) ilham: yoi
(10:06 PM) mutiaw is now Offline
(10:07 PM) nabb_d@hotmail.c: angkanya ko cantik banget
(10:07 PM) ilham: gwe kan baru kerja magang jadi bru dpt 1
(10:07 PM) yecs ;: GA MODAL.
(10:07 PM) yecs ;: ga bakal jadi profesional lu, jelek ramalannye -,-
(10:07 PM) ilham: nanti kalo punya banyak dikira malpraktek
(10:07 PM) nabb_d@hotmail.c: kemaren harusnya lu buka stand ramal di hut 78
(10:07 PM) yecs ;: HAHA
(10:07 PM) yecs ;: kagada yang dateng

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akhir"nya:
(10:49 PM) yecs ;: ngambek?
(10:49 PM) ilham: stand ramalan gwe bangkrut
(10:49 PM) yecs ;: hahaha
(10:49 PM) yecs ;: dari tadi kali
(10:49 PM) yecs ;: -,-
(10:49 PM) ilham: gwe gnti jadi tukang pel masjid aja
(10:50 PM) ilham: dapet pahala
(10:50 PM) nabila: ih kamyuwhnyhah ngambegh
(10:51 PM) yecs ;: brb maen facebook tetris ;)
(10:51 PM) nabila: OFF YA DAAH
(10:51 PM) ilham: buah kedondonk
di pasar malam
bliin kaset ps3 donk
buat ilham

Jadi gua pas balik kalah maen facebook tetris, mereka udah pergi -_- Udah males gua jadinya belajar abis itu, jadinya gua kagak belajar biologi deh. Alesannya kan pulang udah malem, lagian tadinya gua udah bawa catetan di mobil, tapi karena thalia ribut pengen dengerin lagu" HSM di ipod jadinya di mobil juga kaga belajar dah.

25 January Gallery

giddy

Paramore - Stop This Song

Labels: family: cousin, family: gathering, life: chinese new year, place: bojong, place: muara karang, place: pluit, school: holiday

FAMILY DAY
pre-chinese new year

pictures speaks more than words
place: grand's house

makan"

yallah, bokap gua bisa sembahyang juga

first-second generation

bunda-papa ;)

sadar kamera banget, kathy

maxi is a misteri

odd couple incest

first generations.

with farrel, kathy

in the middle.

jump.

with 'jonasindra' brothers




with alicia and random rap song

engaged.

ipod

broken home. bapa baca misteri, ibu setress, anak hiperaktif


model pantai

bunda & aem trisna





video geje -,-



Kurang Thalia dan Jeffry.

Malemnya, gua adu bacot dah ama gery. Dia udah salah, sok bangga banget, terus ngatain gua. Beraninya ngatain mentang" udah sma, kaga ketemu di sekolah, coba masih smp - mana berani, dilabrak ada langsung (buktinya aje pas kelas 1 ngadu ama nyokap). Jadinya gery gua blok aje. Malemnya ampe pagi gua chatting ama andry, gua buka dah aibnya gery semua.
Gery; Secara kita kalo ke Lemuel pake kabar-kabarannya mepet, malemnya lah, paginya pas di sekolah, jadinya gausah main salah-salahan donk kalo kaga keajak - salah siapa coba lu kaga deket ama kita pada? Gausah nyalahin kita kalo kita ngajak yang deket-deket aje. Emang lu juga pernah ngajak kita ke Lemuel? Gausah diajak juga bisa dateng sendiri, emang tiap minggu ngumpul di Lemuel -_-


25 January Gallery

crazy

Paramore - Stop This Song

Labels: family: alicia, family: cousin, family: erik, family: farrel, family: gathering, family: grandma, family: keti, family: maxi, friend: andry, friend: gary, life: dance, magazine: misteri